welcome to the future

Nothing scares me more than the future does. And I don't mean the future with flying cars and robots, I mean my life in the next 10 years. What am I going to do when I leave high school? Where am I going to go to college? Will I get too homesick? What am I going to do without my friends and my mom? Will I get married? I think about these questions way more than I should and it scares me more than anything. Most people are so excited to throw their graduation caps up in the air and leave for college, but i am far from excited. I know life will be so fun after high school but I have no idea what to do. I don't know how I'm going to survive school and life without my friends that I see everyday. Whenever I get too freaked out, I just remind myself that everyone has to move on and grow up it just really scares me. I guess you could say I have a fear of the future. And I know I can always talk to my friends and my family will always be here when I come home from college, which makes me feel a little more comfortable. I just wish the thought of growing up didn't seem so scary.