My Fear

My greatest fear is letting other people down. I know it sounds kind of corny but after some thought, I realized its actually the worst fear I have. This fear has existed as long as I can remember regarding school and such, but it truly started mattering when I joined the Henry Clay marching band. Everyone put in so much effort you didn't want to be the one who let the group down thus my fear blossomed. It became even worse last year when I had severe asthma problems because the directors and drum majors would make me sit out of reps because they said I couldn't put my health in danger for just an activity. I disagreed, I was totally prepared to have an asthma attack during practice, just so I filled in my spot for the drill. I couldn't let everyone else be hurt because of me. Even looking back this last year when i was in the pit (so that I didn't have asthma issues), whenever anyone sat out all i could think was "that was me last year, and i hurt the group". I think this fear is a good thing to have but it can also be a problem when taken to the extreme.