I am primarily afraid of two things: natural disasters and having a family member die in front of me or when I am away and cannot get home for a certain reason or another.
Though I have never actually experienced a natural disaster in its entirety, last year during our "tornado scare", I was completely freaked out and honestly took a sedative so I could calm down. However, it is not just tornadoes (they're the worst!), earthquakes and tsunamis also scare me but I will probably never have to experience either. The mere thought of a wave of water rushing towards me or the lack of stability under my feet while objects fall around me frightens me less than tornadoes when I could be killed by vicious winds or flying debris, but frightens me nonetheless. I have always wondered what I would do if I was in the middle of a natural disaster, would I faint? Would I try to run/drive away if possible? I cannot even begin to fathom what someone feels like when they hear a funnel cloud or see the wave of a tsunami coming towards them. I guess that I have only felt the chill that comes when you hear the tornado sirens go off in an otherwise quiet night.
The thought of a losing a family member die in front of me is absolutely horrifying so much so that I am afraid to stay around elderly relatives for a long period of time. I just do not want to see another human being pass away, it's pretty much that simple. I don't think that I could deal with the pain that well, especially if it was someone with whom I was close. Dying without saying goodbye is another fear about death that I have for pretty much the same reason as above but I also want to have the chance to let that person know that I love them unconditionally.
So, I am not a total freak, but these are indeed my fears...
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