Fears being kidnapped, losing someone very close to me
Annoyances very poor grammar, rudeness
Accomplishments keeping up with academics while still doing other activities
Confusions why I have such a fortunate life but other good (and maybe better) people don't
Sorrows the inability to realize that I can't change the past
Dreams being successful as an actor, writing a book (also being able to sing, but the idea of that is laughable)
Idiosyncrasies obsessive-I frequently get nerdy obsessions with a book, a TV show, a musical, music, etc. (but I also get obsessive about school, which is stressful)
Risks sometimes I trust too many people; there hasn't really been any crisis in particular, but I tell a lot of people things that I should probably just tell my best friends
Beloved Possessions, Now and Then blanket (then), stable foundation/home life
Problems perfectionism-I get too angry with myself when I can't be everything that I want to be
Problems perfectionism-I get too angry with myself when I can't be everything that I want to be
I think my hamartia is that I'm such a perfectionist and that I can't live up to the standards that I set for myself. A lot of times I think of all the things I'll do when I get home from school (go for a run, do all my homework, get ahead in several classes, read for awhile) and I end up wasting my time on the Internet or doing something pointless, which stresses me out later. I also compare myself to too many people instead of just trying to be the best I can be; even though I'm aware that I do this, I can't seem to stop. I don't think this will stop after high school; right now I'm worried about college and in college I'll be worried about grad school and in grad school I'll be worried about a job and I'll keep trying to be perfect and I think sometimes I just need to remind myself to breathe.
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