Territories

Fears- not doing well in school
Annoyances- people who need everyone to like them
accomplishments- getting better grades, athletic accomplishments
confusions- motivation
sorrows- regrets in life
dreams- mastering everything in my life at a point
idiosyncracies- overly attached to tv/books/music/other stuff
risks- not studying
precious possessions, legos (then) phone (now)
problems- finding motivation to do everything well.

I'm going to elaborate on the last of my writing territories which is finding the motivation to do things and do them well. This mainly has to do with school but it applies to almost everything I do in life because I constantly struggle with this. I'll start with school because it has really been bothering me of late. At the beginning of the school year I feel like I started out on task and giving it my all, but now I feel as though I have lost the motivation to do anything above the bare minimum on my own. Maybe Ive just not been assigned as much homework compared to the last few weeks, or maybe its something else, or maybe Im just being paranoid. My grades have slackened a little and maybe thats whats causing me to feel this but I think I will try and reverse this feeling and start trying a bit harder.

Then I started thinking about how better off the self motivated individual is compared to someone less motivated like myself. Someone who doesn't need the D on a test to get their stuff together. And it doesn't just apply to grades. Athletically for example, self motivation can not only help someone perform well in sports, it can help them live a fit lifestyle. My brother for example runs five or six times a week and does pushups everyday. Why does he do it: he likes being fit. Simple as that. No other motivation than himself. This has left me convinced that someday my brother is going to be a very successful individual and I am going to have to try hard to keep up with him (he approaches grades in the same way).