Fears: death/life/human interaction
Annoyances: prejudice; self-righteousness; zealots
Accomplishments: self-releasing albums and EPs from multiple projects
Confusions: existential crises mostly
Sorrows: lack of fulfillment from/general disappointment worldly pleasures
Dreams: having some of my art be well-received; finding true enjoyment
Idiosyncrasies: obsession with continuity and structure.
Risks: creating anything revealing about my own thoughts and feelings
Beloved possessions: now - record collection/sound system; then - legos
Problems: illegitimate/selfish/internal
My greatest dream is for my artistic endeavors to be truly validated by some external body, not by my own satisfaction. I seem to spend the majority of my time working on various project - music, poetry, creative writing, film, etc. Even more time is spent poring over the works of my idols to try and determine which techniques would allow me to achieve such beauty. However, a great many of my own works appear inadequate to me, so I abandon them entirely. When I do judge something to be semi-acceptable and cast it off into the webosphere, it seems that I am never truly recognized. All I want is to create something that resonates with others - something that others are able to either connect to or simply enjoy in an aesthetic sense. Obviously, as I publish more things in the future, the greater exposure might lead to this sort of validation, but for now, I am constantly worried that I am pursuing realms where I simply possess no talent.
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