meredith probz

Fears: If you ask anyone I know, they’d say it was about being kidnapped. I obsess way too much over this. But really, my biggest fear is settling in life.
Annoyances: Bare feet. Don’t put them near me or touch me with them. But for Heaven’s sake, DO wash them and put socks on them. My family likes to make sure they freak me out with this one.
Accomplishments: Never getting in with a bad group of friends
Confusions: Crocs
Sorrows: Never stepping out of my comfort zone and taking chances
Dreams: I know it sounds cliché, but just to be happy in life. I have family members that thought getting certain jobs would make them happy but it doesn’t. I just want to be happy with whatever I do.
Idiosyncrasies: Constantly getting lost while I’m driving (I just tell my mom I’m going on explorations)
Risks: Writing this blog somewhat late
Beloved possessions: Then- my books. Now- my room where I can be alone (oh, and my friends and all that I guess)
Problems: Being selfish

I’m a constant worrier and freak out over everything, so I’ll talk about my fears. While I have many, I’m really afraid that I won’t be able to do what I want in life because I just kind of gave up half way. Like, I don’t want to settle for a college that I only partially like or not go to a college that I really wanted to go to. And I don’t want to settle for just a regular job when I’m older. I don’t want to be 25 and have already peaked. I don’t want to settle and marry a man that’s ‘safe’. I want to marry someone I love lots and don’t think I could ever stop loving. I don’t want to be finished with all I’m going to accomplish or do before 50. (I do want to be a hip grandma)

I’m just afraid I’m not going to do what I want to do with my life.