Writing Territories

Fears-not being in control

Annoyances-when people are unoriginal/ narrow mindedness

Accomplishments-i've won reflections contests with photography and was requested to paint a horse for horse mania in 2010

Confusions-ignorant people

Sorrows-lack of sleep

Dreams-traveling the world

Idiosyncrasies-control freak

Risks-going to an expensive college

Beloved Possessions, Now and Then- then: a stuffed bear, now: my camera

Problems-procrastination

I return home from school. My mom and stepdad are packing their things. They both leave and I'm home alone. I don't know what to do. I try to leave but the doors are locked from the outside. I go to my cell phone but the call won't go through. Nothing is in my control. Nothing is going how I want it to. My mom returns home. She is talking about moving and leaving my stepdad. She isn't acting normal. I try to talk some sense in to her, but she won't listen. I wake up.

This is a normal nightmare for me. While it goes more in depth than this-it usually goes somewhat like that. The theme here is that I am not in control. No matter what I do, I can't control anything. My mother won't listen to me, I can't leave my house, nothing I do can affect anything. This is what my fear is, as well-not being in control. This problem seems deeply rooted in my past. My parents divorced when I was a child, and I had no control over this. I went to see my dad two summers ago, and when I came back, a stranger was living in my house. He is now my stepdad. It seems as if these past experiences have built me up to have a fear of not being in control. And for this, I have recurring nightmares of a more extreme level of not being in control.