My List

Writing Territories:
Spiders
Stress
High School
Studying
Obligation
Music
Culture
Desire
Family
Childhood, then and now

I guess what Id like to go off of would be obligation, because it leads into all of the writing territories. Basically since day one Ive known what path im going to go into and ive never had an issue of what I am going to do with my future because it has always been laid out for me: do well in high school - maintain good GPA, extra curriculars, standardized testing - Go to a good college 4 years, med school 4 years, residency 2 years, fellowship 2 years, get out of school when im 32, be 200 thousand + dollars in debt and then settle with my life. That is what path I am tied to. I have succumbed to the obligations my parents have set for me and sacrificed my dreams as a result  What are my dreams? that doesnt matter anymore, I cant go after them. I am not saying I am forced into this path, Its just this is the path I am obligated to follow, why? Because my culture tells me to do so. Its almost daunting: starting into the face of your future day in and day out, knowing that you will ultimately work until you become too exhausted to work any more, then youll settle, and look back knowing you lead a perfectly mediocre life. Having this thought in the back of my head every day... it does something to a person, makes them lose hope...makes them become cripplingly cynical and apathetic. But alas, this is my obligation and it is the path I have chosen.
Oh also I hate spiders more than anything. One time on Winter vacation a spider bit me in a very tender area and I had to go to the ER for 3 days and my brother wouldnt stop making fun of me and telling me where the web would come out of and yeah... I hate spiders. Oh and I like some preettayy good music, heres a good instrumental: