(This prompt comes from blog 6. Thank you, Ned Katz and Bram Dutch)
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Assignment 9: BOO
(This prompt comes from blog 6. Thank you, Ned Katz and Bram Dutch)
Monday, October 22, 2012
Writing territories
Writing Territories
~I have a fear of being harmed by a stranger.
~ People who just don't listen annoy me.
~ I have accomplished many things in life. Fencing results would be an example.
~ I am confused about where I am going in life and what I should do to get there.
~ It sorrows me to hear about amazing acts going unrecognized.
~ I dream about the future.
~Idiosyncrasies for me: fencing.
~ I don't take risks much. I like to be in total control.
~Beloved Possessions would now be my dogs. Then, my diary was absolutely my beloved possession.
~Problems: balancing all parts of my life.
Of these 10 points not takings risks and being in total control most likely have the largest impact on me. I have to be in control. I get paranoid when some activities go haywire. I like to have a plan. Many people try to just have events go as they flow. I don't, well can't, do that. I have to know that after we see a movie we will go to dinner then to... the mall. This will allow me to know the exactly what I an doing. I then could slightly off then plan. I have to be in control with school. I could almost say I am a perfectionist or a near perfectionist. I desire for every action I complete to be right, and near perfection. Risky actions are extremely hard to make perfect; as well, I do not like to put my life in dangerous situations. I do not understand people who enjoy doing stupid actions on a regular basis to have fun. I must stay in control of the situation I am in and my actions must at least be near perfect.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Writing Territories
Annoyance: People with bad attitudes
Accomplishments: Plays 10 different instrument, triaining to be a Pokemon Master
Confusions: If youre driving a car at or faster than the speed of light and you turn the lights on what happens
Sorrows: The rabbit is never going to get any Trix.
Dreams: The rabbit is finally going to get Trix.
Idiosyncrasies: Band Nerd
Risks: Social Suicide
Beloved Passions: Music (then), Music (now)
Problems: Procrastination
One thing i have learned since becoming a band nerd was to stop caring so much. Stop caring what other people think, stop caring what other people do, stop caring about things that dont matter. This might sound like a bad thing but its not. It gets you asking yourself "Does it matter? No? So why should i care?" This "i dont care" attitude is what helps us survive high school. Some people consider band to be "social suicide", but these are the people who care what people outside of band think and say. Band isnt cool? Why not?
And to the bandies who act like they arent in band or like they are ashamed to be in band, if you think this makes you seem uncool, get out. If you want to please the people who think expressing yourself is "gay" or "nerdy", leave. Never walk through the band room doors again. You obviously dont like it either, so just quit. If you like it and you just dont want to seem uncool, you can leave too, or check your priorities because if you care that much what other people say, the rest of your life is going to consist of you trying to please the people around you so you can fit in, and do you think that will be a fun life? Didnt think so. So to the bandies, quit caring. And to the people who hate on band, we dont care.
When i say quit caring, i mean about the pointless stuff. Care about things your passionate about. Be able to differentiate between things that matter and things that dont
Writing Territories
Raed and Enojy
meredith probz
Annoyances: Bare feet. Don’t put them near me or touch me with them. But for Heaven’s sake, DO wash them and put socks on them. My family likes to make sure they freak me out with this one.
Accomplishments: Never getting in with a bad group of friends
Confusions: Crocs
Sorrows: Never stepping out of my comfort zone and taking chances
Dreams: I know it sounds cliché, but just to be happy in life. I have family members that thought getting certain jobs would make them happy but it doesn’t. I just want to be happy with whatever I do.
Idiosyncrasies: Constantly getting lost while I’m driving (I just tell my mom I’m going on explorations)
Risks: Writing this blog somewhat late
Beloved possessions: Then- my books. Now- my room where I can be alone (oh, and my friends and all that I guess)
Problems: Being selfish
I’m a constant worrier and freak out over everything, so I’ll talk about my fears. While I have many, I’m really afraid that I won’t be able to do what I want in life because I just kind of gave up half way. Like, I don’t want to settle for a college that I only partially like or not go to a college that I really wanted to go to. And I don’t want to settle for just a regular job when I’m older. I don’t want to be 25 and have already peaked. I don’t want to settle and marry a man that’s ‘safe’. I want to marry someone I love lots and don’t think I could ever stop loving. I don’t want to be finished with all I’m going to accomplish or do before 50. (I do want to be a hip grandma)
Man eating dog.
I don't understand extroverts.
Annoyances- extroverts who are obnoxious
Accomplishments- Laziest person in the world. Good grades, I guess, but the laziness trumps that, in my opinion.
Confusions- extroverts
Sorrows- the death of fictional characters
Dreams- Getting to go to LeakyCon every year for the rest of my life
Idiosyncrasies- obsessive
Risks- wanting to go to Scotland for college
Beloved Possessions- Then (and now pretty much): my blankey. Now: Harry Potter paraphernalia
Problems- motivation
I could go on and on about how dejected and morose I can be when I think about some of my favorite fictional characters' deaths, but I will not bore you with my ramblings on about how JK Rowling is a cruel person for murdering all her characters.
Confusion:
Yes, I don't understand extroverts. I've even spent long hours evaluating them to try and decipher their actions. I just can't seem to understand why a person would willingly want to start up a conversation with someone they don't even know very well. I've had to spend my whole life telling people that, "No, I'm not lonely sitting here by myself," and "No, I would not like to come sit with you." That's always been one of my pet peeves. Any time I've been in a social-type situation where I happen to be without my friends (i.e. second lunch when my friends all have first), I end up sitting by myself. I don't think I look pathetic and lonely, because I'm not, but that's what it must appear to other people. I can't count the number of times that people that I kind-of know have approached me to inquire if something was wrong with me or if I wanted to come sit with them. That's the thing that confuses me about extroverts. In their mind, they can't seem to fathom why a person would just want to be alone, when I don't mind it, and in fact, take pleasure in being all by my lonesome.
I also don't understand how people can carry on conversations so flawlessly with people that they are only acquaintances with. I am really only able to speak comfortably with people whom I know exceedingly well, like my best friend or my family. It truly gives me anxiety to think about having to socialize with people that I'm not very familiar with. Sometimes I am even uncomfortable being alone with my own brother because I don't know what to say to him occasionally. I suppose that is why I take such pleasure in staying home reading rather than going out and being with my peers.
Occasionally I try to observe extroverts to see how they carry on conversations and what they say to one another, but I can't seem to grasp the technique of socialization. There was one specific day last year, after school, when I just observed my best friend, Annie Bradford, whom I deem to be an extrovert, having a chat with Cullen Smith. They are fairly close friends, but I still couldn't imagine how they were carrying on their conversation. This is how it went:
Annie: "Cullen, did you get a haircut?"
Cullen: "No, not recently."
Annie: "Oh. Well then did you get a new head? You look different."
Cullen: "Not to my knowledge, no."
Like it was the most normal thing in the world to be discussing Cullen's swap in heads. I never would have even thought to say something like that. I guess you just have to be born a socialite. It was then that I asked Annie to teach me her knowledge in conversing. I don't think it has particularly worked.
Well, now ends my ramblings on about that subject.
Territories
Annoyances- people who need everyone to like them
accomplishments- getting better grades, athletic accomplishments
confusions- motivation
sorrows- regrets in life
dreams- mastering everything in my life at a point
idiosyncracies- overly attached to tv/books/music/other stuff
risks- not studying
precious possessions, legos (then) phone (now)
problems- finding motivation to do everything well.
I'm going to elaborate on the last of my writing territories which is finding the motivation to do things and do them well. This mainly has to do with school but it applies to almost everything I do in life because I constantly struggle with this. I'll start with school because it has really been bothering me of late. At the beginning of the school year I feel like I started out on task and giving it my all, but now I feel as though I have lost the motivation to do anything above the bare minimum on my own. Maybe Ive just not been assigned as much homework compared to the last few weeks, or maybe its something else, or maybe Im just being paranoid. My grades have slackened a little and maybe thats whats causing me to feel this but I think I will try and reverse this feeling and start trying a bit harder.
Then I started thinking about how better off the self motivated individual is compared to someone less motivated like myself. Someone who doesn't need the D on a test to get their stuff together. And it doesn't just apply to grades. Athletically for example, self motivation can not only help someone perform well in sports, it can help them live a fit lifestyle. My brother for example runs five or six times a week and does pushups everyday. Why does he do it: he likes being fit. Simple as that. No other motivation than himself. This has left me convinced that someday my brother is going to be a very successful individual and I am going to have to try hard to keep up with him (he approaches grades in the same way).
A Girl Likes Engineering? What?
Olivia Faulkner: Math Enthusiast / BA MC
Territories:
Fears: the ocean, sharks (sorry Bay)
Confusions: what nonsense people consider socially acceptable these days
Sorrows: the great amount of divorce that has happened in my family
Dreams: travel, study abroad, design my own house, become a teacher.
Idiosyncrasies: I don't know if this counts but Josh likes to think of me as, "I am woman, hear me roar."
Risks: future risk would be going to study abroad I guess
- *If you are in my freshman class, know the difference between their, there, and they're (and other words like them)
- If you are in any of my classes, you had better know how to read.
- If you are in high school, you shouldn't in any way expect someone to just do your work for you.
- If I assign you homework, you had better expect me to check it, and to be frustrated with you if you don't remember, or just plain don't do it.
- If I don't, you have my permission to be angry with me.
- For math specifically:
- Know your multiplication tables.
- Know how to divide.
- Realize when I act like math is cool, I totally see you in the back laughing at me for being such a nerd. I know who I am, and I'm okay with that person.
- *If you don't, I feel I should have permission to send you back to kindergarten.
Writing Territories
Writing Territories by Zack
Blog #8
Annoyances: Arrogance, not being listened to, incorrect grammar
Accomplishments: Working as well as I can under circumstances
Confusions: Life, the future, etc (Too many to accurately list. I'm perpetually confused.)
Sorrows: Losing friends
Dreams: Be remembered for something
Idiosyncrasies: I'm obsessed with being as unique of a person as possible.
Risks: Speaking honestly about my feelings.
Beloved Possessions: Then: my dolls. Now: my friends.
Problems: Stress, procrastination
I'm going to elaborate on my annoyances, because who doesn't like talking about things that anger them?
I'm constantly annoyed when there are people who are clearly above my intelligence level that make sure the whole world knows it. I hate the people that pride themselves in one-upping everyone else's intelligence and putting down other people if they don't meet their level.
I also become annoyed when I'm speaking to someone but once someone else starts speaking they completely stop listening to me. It makes me feel like what I was saying was not important or worthy of being listened to. I, of course, react passive-aggressively like any teenage girl would and stop talking to see if anyone noticed that I was completely cut off when I was talking.
And finally, who doesn't list incorrect grammar as one of their pet peeves? (I am aware that I have already used that sentence structure. I don't care enough to change it right now.) Anyway, incorrect grammar is my go-to answer when I'm asked what my pet peeves are. It's simple and, unless I'm wrong, everyone can understand it. Incorrect grammar just makes me cringe internally.
Growing up
Validation
Annoyances: prejudice; self-righteousness; zealots
Accomplishments: self-releasing albums and EPs from multiple projects
Confusions: existential crises mostly
Sorrows: lack of fulfillment from/general disappointment worldly pleasures
Dreams: having some of my art be well-received; finding true enjoyment
Idiosyncrasies: obsession with continuity and structure.
Risks: creating anything revealing about my own thoughts and feelings
Beloved possessions: now - record collection/sound system; then - legos
Problems: illegitimate/selfish/internal
Writing Territories
Writing Territories
Annoyances: being interrupted
Accomplishments: moving past failure
Confusions: magic tricks
Sorrows: Sibelius 1
Dreams: music
Idiosyncrasies: dork
Risks: driving
Beloved Possessions: plastic barbie shoes (then) and my instrument (now)
Problems: expectations
They are creepy and crawly and, I swear, they can sense fear. Spiders with their disgustingly thin legs slowly but surely come for me. Butterflies with their hairy faces and fluttery wings land all around me. Worst of all,the crickets know just when to jump. I pray they won't be alarmed or make sudden moves but when the tension reaches a climax, they jump a mile high and land WHO KNOWS WHERE! Bugs, on top of being gross, are evil too. I see them sometimes in my very own house. But they never appear when my fearless mother is around. No. Always when I'm alone, when I least expect it. They think they're clever, lurking in shadows until the coast is clear. It's pure wickedness. My parents sometimes say I overreact, but it's not me! The bugs are cruel!
99 problems
Writing Territories
Loud or high pitched noises
Straight A student
Teenagers
Losing my Grandpa
Being a dad
I'm extra alert in unfamiliar locations
Spent 7 nights in a Central American village with rampant gang violence
Then- card collection Now- Knife from my Grandpa
Stress
Losing my grandpa was the toughest thing I've ever gone through. I spent a lot of time with him as a kid despite the distance between where we lived. It's been almost two years now since I lost him, but it's often hard knowing he isn't here anymore. From when I was little we shared a love for the outdoors and the kind of sportsmanship enacted with a gun and rod. We'd stay up late into the night, and I'd be hanging onto every word of his stories dreaming up wilderness scenes in my mind. He loved to hunt and that passion was passed into my life. It was our bond. I'm often haunted by the fact that we never shared a day in the woods on the hunt nor a day at the range together. When I miss him the most those things pile up on me, but I have the fond memory of a few months before his passing when I took a Nerf gun to his house and despite his being confined to bed we each took a few shots at a target I set up across the room. It isn't quite how I pictured my grandpa and I would share what we loved, but I'll never let go of that memory and it will always be the one what if I don't have to live with.
Pasta
Writing Territories
Annoyances - when people are mean
Accomplishments - Good Grades
Confusions - Life after death
Sorrows - Losing my aunt
Dreams - Be in a movie
Idiosyncrasies - Making jokes at inappropriate times
Risks - I take none
Beloved Possessions - iPhone
Problems - Trying to please everyone all of the time
Life After death is a concept that really confuses me. I have been a Christian for all my life and they have always said to not worry about death because life afterwards is much better. I have several issues with this, but I will speak of mainly one. I am a logical guy, and I rely heavily on facts and proof. Since there is no proof of a life after this one, I am inclined to believe that there is none. One thing really stressed in church is faith. Faith in Jesus, faith that life will get better, and faith in an afterlife. This bugs me for a small reason, you can put faith in anything, but that doesn't necessarily make it true. I can have 'faith' that I am going to win the lottery today, but that doesn't at all mean I will win. Now, if there are concrete facts that the lottery is rigged and I have proof that I will win, that faith is more justified. So is there an afterlife? There very well could be. I have been taught my whole life to believe in one, and I think we should all live like there is one. As for the logic behind it however, maybe there are some things people just can't prove.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Writing Territories-my hamartia
Annoyances very poor grammar, rudeness
Accomplishments keeping up with academics while still doing other activities
Confusions why I have such a fortunate life but other good (and maybe better) people don't
Sorrows the inability to realize that I can't change the past
Dreams being successful as an actor, writing a book (also being able to sing, but the idea of that is laughable)
Idiosyncrasies obsessive-I frequently get nerdy obsessions with a book, a TV show, a musical, music, etc. (but I also get obsessive about school, which is stressful)
Risks sometimes I trust too many people; there hasn't really been any crisis in particular, but I tell a lot of people things that I should probably just tell my best friends
Beloved Possessions, Now and Then blanket (then), stable foundation/home life
Problems perfectionism-I get too angry with myself when I can't be everything that I want to be
Problems perfectionism-I get too angry with myself when I can't be everything that I want to be
I think my hamartia is that I'm such a perfectionist and that I can't live up to the standards that I set for myself. A lot of times I think of all the things I'll do when I get home from school (go for a run, do all my homework, get ahead in several classes, read for awhile) and I end up wasting my time on the Internet or doing something pointless, which stresses me out later. I also compare myself to too many people instead of just trying to be the best I can be; even though I'm aware that I do this, I can't seem to stop. I don't think this will stop after high school; right now I'm worried about college and in college I'll be worried about grad school and in grad school I'll be worried about a job and I'll keep trying to be perfect and I think sometimes I just need to remind myself to breathe.
Writing Territories
Annoyances: Ignorant people
Accomplishments: Being involved in the community and receiving all "A's".
Confusions: The concept of theoretical math
Sorrows: The loss of a family member or friend
Dreams: Working for the State Department or for an investment bank and living in Europe
Idiosyncrasies: I tend to zone out when I am bored and when I focus my attention back to the person, I am usually quite rude saying things like "Are you still talking?"
Risks: I convinced my parents to let me explore New York by myself for a day without supervision.
Beloved Possessions, Now and Then: Laptop (Now) and my stuffed elephant/Cleveland Indians cap (Then)
Problems: Stress about the future and success
Risks: My exploration of New York
As a child, I traveled to New York several times and I am quite familiar with the City, but last March my dad and I went to visit NYU and I was able to spend the day before my visit exploring what I consider the greatest city on Earth (aside from Paris, of course!). I started my day taking the Lexington Avenue Express from Wall Street to 75th Street on the Upper East Side and though I know several New Yorkers and the City, the city's diversity did not make an impact on me until that day. From old to young, from Hispanic to White to Asian American, during my ride on the subway I saw more different kinds of people that one could see in a lifetime at home whether it be children on their way to school, a businessman on his way to work, or a new mom with her baby, the subway is where all New Yorkers come together to share a ride. Because is was an entirely full day, I will only mention two of my favorite neighborhoods, the Upper East Side and Lower East Side. When I alighted from the subway at 75th Street, you are in one of the wealthiest areas of America, you can find cafes, expensive private schools, and sweet Central Park views, but for me besides Dylan's Candy Bar at Madison and 65th, this section of the city symbolizes what you can become in this city of possibilities, you can win big and make a name for yourself just like the Vanderbilts, Astors, and Rockefellers before you. While the UES is the symbol of American success and sometimes greed, the Lower East Side shows me the origins of that success, the hard work ethic and dreams of success that are still fresh in the minds of immigrants that arrive in this city just like the many nationalities that inhabited this neighborhood after surviving a hellish trip from overseas and an inspection at Ellis Island. I guess what I can see most clearly now after this trip is that not only New York, but it is still possible to succeed in this country regardless of what politicians may say, they need only to look at New York as the shining example of success without attention to background.
Writing Territories
stupid questions
good grades
what to do with my life
not focusing on 1 thing and becoming good
uncontrollably laughing when nothing is funny
relying on others for rides and consequently being left/riding with poor drivers
phone and friends, cape
trying to be perfect student and taking classes way too difficult
When I was little, my parents urged me to try new and different things so that I would become a well rounded person. While I appreciate this, I wish that I had chosen to focus on 1 or 2 things (sports in particular). Throughout elementary and middle school, I played soccer, basketball, cross country, track, tennis, lacrosse, golf, and swimming. I played every sport that was available at my school and continued during the summer. I consider myself to be a good athlete and I was decent at all of these sports (except lacrosse I was terrible) but not exceptional at any.
I regard swimming and running to be my best sports. I swam year round for a few years and I was very good when I was about 9 or 10. Then I left my previous team and swam for Wildcat which I hated. I had few friends there and I practiced at inconvenient times, so I quit. I regret this decision because I feel that I could have become much better than I am today, but I was too lazy then and now to reach my potential. The same thing happened with running. In 4th grade I was the best runner in our "Area" of Kentucky and participated in the AAU National Cross Country Meet. Then I did not get any better for a few years and quit to pursue other sports. I wish I would have kept up with swimming or cross country because I am sorrowful for not reaching my potential.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Blog Post #8--Writing Territories
Writing Territories - Laura Doll
When people ask me what kind of things I did when I was little, my mind goes straight to writing. I wrote short stories and books in my spare time, even when I could barely read. I had (and still have, somewhere) hundreds of notebooks that I started writing stories in. When I tell people of my writing as a child, my mind goes to one particular time. Once I locked my mom out of her room (she had the only computer in the house at the time), and I wrote and typed a book called “Transportation”. I was six years old and I remember people being freaked that I could spell transportation by myself, and insert clip art into my book and everything. I still have the original copy of this book that I printed and I love showing people and telling that story. This love for writing is still a part of my life now and I would love to write a successful book.
Monday, October 15, 2012
My List
Spiders
Stress
High School
Studying
Obligation
Music
Culture
Desire
Family
Childhood, then and now
I guess what Id like to go off of would be obligation, because it leads into all of the writing territories. Basically since day one Ive known what path im going to go into and ive never had an issue of what I am going to do with my future because it has always been laid out for me: do well in high school - maintain good GPA, extra curriculars, standardized testing - Go to a good college 4 years, med school 4 years, residency 2 years, fellowship 2 years, get out of school when im 32, be 200 thousand + dollars in debt and then settle with my life. That is what path I am tied to. I have succumbed to the obligations my parents have set for me and sacrificed my dreams as a result What are my dreams? that doesnt matter anymore, I cant go after them. I am not saying I am forced into this path, Its just this is the path I am obligated to follow, why? Because my culture tells me to do so. Its almost daunting: starting into the face of your future day in and day out, knowing that you will ultimately work until you become too exhausted to work any more, then youll settle, and look back knowing you lead a perfectly mediocre life. Having this thought in the back of my head every day... it does something to a person, makes them lose hope...makes them become cripplingly cynical and apathetic. But alas, this is my obligation and it is the path I have chosen.
Oh also I hate spiders more than anything. One time on Winter vacation a spider bit me in a very tender area and I had to go to the ER for 3 days and my brother wouldnt stop making fun of me and telling me where the web would come out of and yeah... I hate spiders. Oh and I like some preettayy good music, heres a good instrumental:
The Great Chicago Fire
Writing Territories
Annoyances- people who won't shut up
Accomplishments- straight A's since I started elementary school
Confusion- Managing time
Sorrows- Procrastination
Dreams- UCLA winning the Men's Basketball National Championship in my lifetime
Idiosyncrasies- Outsider, Nerd
Risks- moving all over the country (from Cali, to Oregon, and then here)
Beloved Possessions- Now- the trust of my parents. Then- my collection of NASCAR diecast replicas (over 100)
Problems- concentration
Concentration
I don't know whether I'm only one who has this problem or not, but concentration is a major battle before I can get anything done. It's as if our society is making it almost impossible with all this new technology that we use 24/7. Once my mind starts racing a billion miles per hour, I can't do anything about it. As a consequence, my homework takes longer and I have less free time. Our lives are full of so much stuff that its hard not to think about. It would have been so much easier to live in the seventies, eighties, or even early nineties because there wouldn't have been so much junk to keep track of. But since we live in 2012, we're forced to live with all the distractions that impact our ability to concentrate effectively. It sucks, but I have to deal with it.
On the Day of October 14th...
Assignment 8: "I never had to choose my subject- my subject rather chose me"
Sunday, October 14, 2012
First Woman to Walk in Space
This day in history
Also it's my moms birthday.
Take me out to the ball game!
Martin Luther King Jr.

Martin Luther King Jr. was born on January 15, 1929 in Georgia, where he attended segregated public schools. He later attended Boston University, and became a pastor of the Dexter Avenue Baptist Church in Montgomery, Alabama. Martin Luther King was a strong Black Civil Rights Activist. However, he was a peaceful Black Civil Rights Activist. In late 1955, he became the leader of the first nonviolent African American demonstration against civil rights: a 382 day long bus boycott. This boycott forced the Supreme Court to declare bus discrimination to be unconstitutional On August 28, 1963, Martin Luther King gave him famous "I Have a Dream" speech. Both of these acts allowed Martin Luther King to be considered for the Nobel Peace Prize in 1964.

I strongly support this event. MLK winning the award was an acknowledgement of African American and White equality. The event led to my ability to go to school with African Americans. So, while this event mainly has an impact on the nation and a specific race; it also has an impact on my life and every other students life, too.
October 14th, 1962. The day the world could have ended.
October 14, 2012
This event proves that anything is possible. A long time ago no one would think that someone could travel to space, much less jump from space and survive. Humans have the capability to do incredible things like this and more will occur in the future. I appreciate the event because of its magnitude. I admire Baumgartner because he was brave enough to pursue his dreams and achieve them. He was delayed by poor weather and equipment error, but he persisted instead of simply giving up and he did it. I think this opens the door for many other possibilities for stunts and will be an important historical event.
On this day... We learned How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying
This certainly had an impact on the musical theatre world, but outside of that, there wasn't a lot of impact because of the unfortunate lack of enthusiasm regarding musicals around the world, particularly in comparison to the enthusiasm of sports.
Again, I'm definitely glad that this occurred, though it doesn't necessarily have a huge impact on my life or my existence.